This is in reference to this thread.
First off, I should apologize for not addressing this up until now. Secondly, my ancient CPU is likely what denies me the ability to post or I would have done so long ago. I've told Ish many times in the past that I can't post on here, and I'd appreciate it if she didn't spread lies about me in a domain in which I'm unable to defend myself. Well, now I am finally posting, with the help of a friend, whom I must thank dearly.
Let's get down to Ish's original post shall, we? I had labored for quite some time in the Chasm farming iolites, and somewhere along the way introduced to Ish the idea of us farming them there, and not only that but the idea of her subbing BST on her WHM, not only for the Chasm but nice solo farming in general. And even in Ish's second post, she claims the whole zone held 6-7 people. If so, two or three of the individuals were random individuals not even involved in Ish's PT. If .. "IF" i even so much as ended up asking two or three people there what they were doing, it would have been merely due to the first person asked either being a smart ass or simply not responding. I knew the leader of the LS and was friends with her at the time. She insulted me and blisted me over my situation with Ish. I was hurt by such disrespect of our friendship and yes I did continue to so much as attempt to explain/apologize/ask her what in the hell she was doing. And I don't recall hitting on her, Ish, but if I did... I hit on manthras, yet i'm not gay. And another thing, a single /sea isn't "/sea whoring". Not only did I know the leader, but I knew a good deal of people within the LS. Thus you maintaining I wanted to join to be with you is mere self-flattery. Ish, I know we talked some and worked this out last night. You are a loyal friend when you want to be; however, I never ever stalked you or obsessed over you. Nor did I ever long for anything more than friends! Perhaps I spewed one of my lame pick-ups that I've told about every mithra or manthra, in a joking manner, but I've assured you time and again, I never longed for you and likely never will.
Also, our dear friend Ishy has failed to mention that she indeed HAS requested for my help on several instances. I honestly thought somewhere along the way, she asked about the Pirate Clubs. She's also asked for help with the Tungi for Klank, some lame sword off of an Antican NM in Quicksands Caves, Rostrum pumps, and Shen. Those of you who know me know that for the most part, I'd rather try and solo something before asking anyone for help, especially my endgame LS. Well, after week after week of incessant whining via tells on her behalf, I find we are doing a shen run as a LS, and thus I beg them to do a run for Ish, who was actually a complete stranger to a good deal of them. So of course we do it, and she gets her WHM Hauby. Amongst other things, I've PL'd her BST, and spent some time camping Biast for her, or Klank, rather. I'm quite sure I'm forgetting a load of stuff. I'm not trying to sing my own praise here exactly. Merely stating that I've been a pretty damn good friend, both voluntary AND after being whined to/begged for help. Now about the repayment, what am i supposed to say? Yes I want 50k on the spot for my services? That's not friendship.
Somewhere within, friendship lies the unwritten code which is simply this: If I'm there for you many times, the repayment usually comes at a time when I may need something down the road. You help each other. Of course I didn't always help Ish in hopes of future assistance, but it'd be a damn good thing for a friend to do: step up in a friend's time of need, and I'm sure she will when the time comes.
As for the SSG golden eye farming, I had assumed it was to help you out at least as much as myself. It wasn't a "Oh, will you get me this?" type of deal: it was a "Wanna make US BOTH money?" request. And by the way.. lol.. I can solo them. It is merely iritating to need to sub WHM and still take hate over any pet I use. (NOT going to use AmigoSabotender to farm. =O )
Also, I don't recall me "bitching about being poor", unless telling you that I either plan to farm or merit, or my asking you to farm with is considered so. Also, the God gear obviously came from hours of activity in an endgame LS, and my gil, was also hard-earned. I spent months farming in various places for hours on end. I did get a few huge smacks in the face by the economy while lvling Goldsmithing, yes. But everyone who hasn't gotten breaks, or broken even, has lost, so it's just a chance thing for the most part. So I really don't know what the gil thing is about, except for possible jealousy, in which case, there's not a lot to be jealous of.. I threw away a good chunk of my life farming for gil in a video game, you didn't. Not seeing where this makes me a better, or more valuable person. (Unless we're talking account selling LOLZ.. and even then, with all the time I've spent "buffing" my account, you could've easily made more working at ohhh . say... your local Burger King.) Btw,, my Goldsmithing is 93, not 96-98, not a huge difference really, just point out yet another fact Ishy here has distorted.
Oh and as for the question of being used. I wouldn't have to second-guess the fact if both Ish and Klank had not told me a few times along the way that she's hated me all along. Yet, most of the time she not only tolerates me, but behaves in quite the friendly manner. Thus it's more complicated than the "I hate you, go die.. <blist>" scenario. I'm not sitting here right now and agreeing that she uses me, but why would someone who even remotely hated me continue to try and be friendly most of the time, asking for help here and there? Again, not saying she uses me: her and her BF have merely given me reasons to wonder sometimes. I'm sure they were quite emotional when they've told me this though.. but it always leaves the question in the back of one's mind.
In closing , Ish is a great gal for the most part. She and I haven't been through the most favorable conditions in our lives, thus, we are walking timebombs I s'pose. I'm not going to go any further with Ish, so as not to strike any unintended offense, but as for me, yes the past has left me paranoid and insecure to a point. Bipolar? Hell.. I would have to look the word up in depth and get back to you on that one. Anyhow, post what you will in response, but bear in mind I'm not asking for the violins here. We all have our demons. Some are strong enough to let go of them, others aren't. No one's perfect, and I'll be the first to admit I am not. I'm truly sorry to Ish, Klank, and anyone else with whom I've battled. Keep in mind this post's purpose wasn't to bring about propaganda. I merely intended to shed some light on things.
First off, I should apologize for not addressing this up until now. Secondly, my ancient CPU is likely what denies me the ability to post or I would have done so long ago. I've told Ish many times in the past that I can't post on here, and I'd appreciate it if she didn't spread lies about me in a domain in which I'm unable to defend myself. Well, now I am finally posting, with the help of a friend, whom I must thank dearly.
Let's get down to Ish's original post shall, we? I had labored for quite some time in the Chasm farming iolites, and somewhere along the way introduced to Ish the idea of us farming them there, and not only that but the idea of her subbing BST on her WHM, not only for the Chasm but nice solo farming in general. And even in Ish's second post, she claims the whole zone held 6-7 people. If so, two or three of the individuals were random individuals not even involved in Ish's PT. If .. "IF" i even so much as ended up asking two or three people there what they were doing, it would have been merely due to the first person asked either being a smart ass or simply not responding. I knew the leader of the LS and was friends with her at the time. She insulted me and blisted me over my situation with Ish. I was hurt by such disrespect of our friendship and yes I did continue to so much as attempt to explain/apologize/ask her what in the hell she was doing. And I don't recall hitting on her, Ish, but if I did... I hit on manthras, yet i'm not gay. And another thing, a single /sea isn't "/sea whoring". Not only did I know the leader, but I knew a good deal of people within the LS. Thus you maintaining I wanted to join to be with you is mere self-flattery. Ish, I know we talked some and worked this out last night. You are a loyal friend when you want to be; however, I never ever stalked you or obsessed over you. Nor did I ever long for anything more than friends! Perhaps I spewed one of my lame pick-ups that I've told about every mithra or manthra, in a joking manner, but I've assured you time and again, I never longed for you and likely never will.
Also, our dear friend Ishy has failed to mention that she indeed HAS requested for my help on several instances. I honestly thought somewhere along the way, she asked about the Pirate Clubs. She's also asked for help with the Tungi for Klank, some lame sword off of an Antican NM in Quicksands Caves, Rostrum pumps, and Shen. Those of you who know me know that for the most part, I'd rather try and solo something before asking anyone for help, especially my endgame LS. Well, after week after week of incessant whining via tells on her behalf, I find we are doing a shen run as a LS, and thus I beg them to do a run for Ish, who was actually a complete stranger to a good deal of them. So of course we do it, and she gets her WHM Hauby. Amongst other things, I've PL'd her BST, and spent some time camping Biast for her, or Klank, rather. I'm quite sure I'm forgetting a load of stuff. I'm not trying to sing my own praise here exactly. Merely stating that I've been a pretty damn good friend, both voluntary AND after being whined to/begged for help. Now about the repayment, what am i supposed to say? Yes I want 50k on the spot for my services? That's not friendship.
Somewhere within, friendship lies the unwritten code which is simply this: If I'm there for you many times, the repayment usually comes at a time when I may need something down the road. You help each other. Of course I didn't always help Ish in hopes of future assistance, but it'd be a damn good thing for a friend to do: step up in a friend's time of need, and I'm sure she will when the time comes.
As for the SSG golden eye farming, I had assumed it was to help you out at least as much as myself. It wasn't a "Oh, will you get me this?" type of deal: it was a "Wanna make US BOTH money?" request. And by the way.. lol.. I can solo them. It is merely iritating to need to sub WHM and still take hate over any pet I use. (NOT going to use AmigoSabotender to farm. =O )
Also, I don't recall me "bitching about being poor", unless telling you that I either plan to farm or merit, or my asking you to farm with is considered so. Also, the God gear obviously came from hours of activity in an endgame LS, and my gil, was also hard-earned. I spent months farming in various places for hours on end. I did get a few huge smacks in the face by the economy while lvling Goldsmithing, yes. But everyone who hasn't gotten breaks, or broken even, has lost, so it's just a chance thing for the most part. So I really don't know what the gil thing is about, except for possible jealousy, in which case, there's not a lot to be jealous of.. I threw away a good chunk of my life farming for gil in a video game, you didn't. Not seeing where this makes me a better, or more valuable person. (Unless we're talking account selling LOLZ.. and even then, with all the time I've spent "buffing" my account, you could've easily made more working at ohhh . say... your local Burger King.) Btw,, my Goldsmithing is 93, not 96-98, not a huge difference really, just point out yet another fact Ishy here has distorted.
Oh and as for the question of being used. I wouldn't have to second-guess the fact if both Ish and Klank had not told me a few times along the way that she's hated me all along. Yet, most of the time she not only tolerates me, but behaves in quite the friendly manner. Thus it's more complicated than the "I hate you, go die.. <blist>" scenario. I'm not sitting here right now and agreeing that she uses me, but why would someone who even remotely hated me continue to try and be friendly most of the time, asking for help here and there? Again, not saying she uses me: her and her BF have merely given me reasons to wonder sometimes. I'm sure they were quite emotional when they've told me this though.. but it always leaves the question in the back of one's mind.
In closing , Ish is a great gal for the most part. She and I haven't been through the most favorable conditions in our lives, thus, we are walking timebombs I s'pose. I'm not going to go any further with Ish, so as not to strike any unintended offense, but as for me, yes the past has left me paranoid and insecure to a point. Bipolar? Hell.. I would have to look the word up in depth and get back to you on that one. Anyhow, post what you will in response, but bear in mind I'm not asking for the violins here. We all have our demons. Some are strong enough to let go of them, others aren't. No one's perfect, and I'll be the first to admit I am not. I'm truly sorry to Ish, Klank, and anyone else with whom I've battled. Keep in mind this post's purpose wasn't to bring about propaganda. I merely intended to shed some light on things.