About a lie.

[Myrrh]

Hello, I'm going to talk about a the tread "The lies of an ex".
First off i'd like to say sorry for getting pissed off and stuff but i was pissed in general and at life but after a week of anti-depressents and time to think about what i did i know why i did what i did.

See most people who know me know i am a nice guy and fun to be around. Now I'm 18 years old and i have had MANY bad things happen to me threw my life and i always came out with a smile.

Like i have been beaten by many a step-dads, I have died once, i have had many operations(not minor ones but big ones), I have been robbed and almost killed when i live in salem/peabody(and it peabody not pbidy if you are from there you knoe what this means), mass because I was canadian, I have watch'd my brothers get everything while i get nothing. Like my older bro got 17k from my grandpa and i gave my mom my collage fund so she could pay bills. And All i get is more bad things but i always had a smile.

Now on my 18th birthday i found out about my friend who also had C.F( http://www.qcdn.org/showthread.php?t=18350 ) and was the same way about life as me, always looking on the bright side and never on the bad. Now our parents have always told us that life will pay off for us if we were always happy and now he is dead and i took that alittle bad and started to think about my life(things like will i die like him and how long do i have left and will i have kids and 1000 others that made me relize something). See my brothers are bad people(its true ask Marajade) and they ALWAYS get rewards and never pain. And here i am always being nice and helping people, giving/lending things to my friends and what not.

And well after 18 years of abuse i decide i wanted to be a bad guy and hopefully get something to make me happy out of it. So i lied to someone and for a whole month i hated myself cause well i hate lying and treating people badly its just not who i am. I am glad she made the thread about it cause it made me think. But what upsets me the most is you people care about one stupid lie more then something like a dead friend( i don't care about posts but look at how many views her thread had and then look at the one about my friend).(tho i got s /tell from someone when i was ingame saying he felt sorrry for me about my friend and i liked that someone took the time to do that)

Now i am not saying that the way i felt makes up for my lying but i just wanted people to know why i did what i did. So thats my explaintion for why i did it and if people want to continue to think i am perverted and w/e then go ahead. But just know i am not one of those people to lie about my sex just to get items or internet pussy as dragonryder put it. I just wanted to be one of the bad guys and see if it made me happy(which it didn't it made me feel worse).

Also i would never hurt myself like i said in the thread because no matter how bad life is i still want to live it(my cousin killed herself and it nearly destroyed my mom and i could never do that to her).

So yeah this is my thread about why i did that. I would have posted it in "The lies of an ex" but it was locked so yeah. Thats all i have to say.

I just wanted people to know my thinking behind the whole thing i don't want people feeling sorry for me or anything

 

[Blackchaoshero]

See my brothers are bad people(its true ask Marajade) and they ALWAYS get rewards and never pain. And here i am always being nice and helping people, giving/lending things to my friends and what not.

Oh, so getting the clap and who knows what other STD's is a reward? when he tried to do that flip on the trampoline and we heard his neck crack 15 feet away it was a reward? look on the upside, god may hate you but he doesn't love jason either...

 

[Myrrh]

Oh, so getting the clap and who knows what other STD's is a reward? when he tried to do that flip on the trampoline and we heard his neck crack 15 feet away it was a reward? look on the upside, god may hate you but he doesn't love jason either...

He may have gotten the clap and a hurt neck but he still has life a hell of a lot easyer then me. And he only got the std cause he IS A WHORE nuff said.

Edit: tho the trampoline thing was funny lol

Another edit: I have had a thought about my brothers bad luck and my bad luck. See my brothers have what i call controlled bad luck which means that they make their own bad luck by doing stupid things such as showing off on a trampoline or murdering someone cause he thought the guy was going to kill him first.

Where as i have uncontrolled bad luck which means all my bad luck is random.

 

[Grem]

This sounds like a cry for help

 

[Sculli]

But what upsets me the most is you people care about one stupid lie more then something like a dead friend( i don't care about posts but look at how many views her thread had and then look at the one about my friend).

Drama sells, tragedy does not.
Plenty of players can relate in in-game drama one way or another. Very few people can relate to C.F., or even care about it. Such is life.

 

[Falsey]

Such is life.

I'm sorry, I have that copywrited.

 

[Kat]

Such is life.

I'm sorry, I have that copywrited.

Um, actually I'm older than both of you and I've been saying that since I was a teenager. I win.

 

[Excim]

saiz la vie.




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