Welp, today has been one shitty day. Actually, lately all I've had are shitty days (besides last night). [This is going to be VERY long.]
For the past month or so, any time I /randomed or cast lot on something, it was below 200 and someone beat me. Every time. Rare/ex armor/weapons, expensive stuff that drops, everything. The only time I casted over 200 was a 909 on a WATER CRYSTAL. I'm never going to get gil coming in or rare/ex items with these crappy lots.
I've been stuck on my AF for BLM for a while now. No one will help. Not even when I offer 50k per coffer key. Hell, it's only Garlaige and Eldieme coffer keys I need. Already have Davoi coffer key. It's driving me insane.
I know a way to make quite a lot of gil in a day (if all goes right) but alas, I can not solo. I gladly offer to split the gil between anyone that comes but no one wants to. That confuses me because normally everyone jumps at the chance of getting gil.
I need 28.7 million gil for my WHM equipment. An additional 3 mill or so for my BLM gear and spells up to 60. I try to make the best of my jobs. I refuse to slack off. I know most of you are going to say something in the terms of "you don't need all that gil. It's the person who makes the character, not the equipment". Well, let me tell you. I've been wanting this equipment for a long time. I've been wanting to make the party happy that invites me to see a WHM that's taken her time to get all that gil up to get everything she has to make the best of her job. I have never been comfortable settling with "ok" gear. I always want the best. That's just who I am. Ever since I seen this gear for each of those two jobs, I've wanted it. "Go on NM/HNM hunts". No. The only one I see friends and my LS go to actively anymore is Simurgh, which bores me shitless because there is absolutely nothing around to fight. Sure, a crab every 30 min or something. But nothing to keep my attention on watching it pop. I get bored, I tend to get wrapped up in other things outside the game, and I tend to miss claim or something. Serket, fine. There's enough there for me to screw around with. Aquarius, sure. Again, there's stuff that will keep my attention on the game. As I said, this gear will be mine. I refuse to do level until I get the equipment I can use right now.
The LS feuds I'm so sick of. BloodofLegends was my family. I'd been with them since my early days. I got the pearl from Jdogg and Zaken back when I was leveling WHM in West Ronfaure with no sub job and rank 1. I LOVED being with them. For a few weeks, I kept getting /tells when someone would see I was BoL. They'd talk about how BoL MPKed them and all this other junk. Was all made up to get BoL a bad rep. Either because they were pissed because BoL claimed an NM/HNM before they could or because they were jealous. I decided to take a break from BoL for a week or two after I kept repeatedly getting those /tells 3-4 times a day and kept telling them to take it up with Watchyourstep, not me, and they didn't. I told Watch and he was fine with that. Until my friend offered me a pearl for another linkshell (I will not name on here so no BS comes up). I never knew that those two LSes were total enemies and soon I became a traitor to BoL. I had no idea what was going on until another friend from BoL told me. I was devestated.
Well, we went out and I had my BoL friend with me and some of the then-current LS to get a testimony and coffer key in Beadeaux for people from the LS. They were at each other's throats the whole time. I kept telling them to shut up, calm down, and just play, but they refused. Finally, when my BoL friend SATA'd on one of the WHM's, she tele'd and the rest warped. I tele'd me and my BoL friend and after hearing them talk crap about BoL and me trying to defend BoL, I unequipped it. I was outnumbered and no one was listening to an ex-BoL.
A week or two later, my friend invites me to join him and two of his friends farming. YAY! I get down there and we farmed for a while. Got two Water IV drops and other misc stuff. I was a happy camper. I even made a new good friend, Blazingvolcomx. After everyone left, I get a /tell from Raz asking me if I'd like to join the linkshell. Sure! A few days later, I find out that this LS is yet another BoL enemy. Oh shit. I decide to stick with them because they weren't talking crap about BoL. Then, I get asked to come help camp Simmy because they needed a WHM. /cry. I go on out there and sure enough (as always
) BoL comes in. After screwin' around with some of the BoL members who didn't hate me, Simmy spawned and they got claim fair and square. Well, I go over, stoneskin and blink, and sit down to watch the fight and get ToD. Suddenly, they were fighting in say talking about each other MPKing and stealing. I got bitched out once in /tell because I did a Cure IV on one of the members fighting Simmy because he was below half. I didn't steal. If I was attempting to steal, I would be able to. I had Cure V and plenty of MP. Once I explained that I wasn't trying to steal, and that I was trying to keep his member alive, he calmed down. *phew*
Then yesterday, poof, Cycloalkane appears. He said he thought I quit the game because he hadn't seen me on LS lately. /cry. Then I hear later that someone has told BoL that I QUIT the LS and was spreading rumors about them to bring down their rep. Excuse me? Why would I do that to whom I still call my family? Who I miss tons? Who I defend any time someone brings up bull shit about them? I'm sorry. WRONG!
Anyways, this LS feud is driving me nuts. I never seen BoL talking crap about anyone but gilsellers. No other LS no matter how much they didn't like them. I respected that a lot. I've lost many friends over this fighting because of rumors being spread and LS's hating each other. THIS ISN'T JUNIOR HIGH PEOPLE! I'm pretty sure many other LS's have the same problem going on.
Watchyourstep, Kasuke, Brianfist, Calbrone, and all of BoL... I'm sorry. The truth is that I was taking a break from the drama I was getting. I didn't leave. I didn't want to. I got so sick of people outside BoL /telling me crap but not telling WYS that I just wanted to take a break. The reason I decided on taking a break was to see if the crap stopped, thinking thier mission was completed. I didn't know that ShikuzaKinen or RazKou were pretty much enemies. I'd never heard of them before. I'm not going to lie, I've made pretty good friends from those LS's. I really didn't know. I hope you guys can forgive me.
Watchyourstep - I never hated you. I never spread shit about you. I never lied to you. I just told you what was said to me. I agreed with you about them being either jealous or something. I tried to get them to /tell you about it but I guess they didn't. I got stuck in the middle of some things on LS which I ended up as the guinea pig to go tell you about which probably made me seem like a bitch when I was just taking everything that someone told me to tell you back to you. I don't know why they couldn't tell you themselves, but you know how I am. I try to help as much as possible. A simple game item, a fight, anything. I hope you can forgive me.
Kasuke - I did NOT want to leave BoL. I wasn't being one of the others who you helped get sky then left. I wanted to stay, I really did. Just with all those rumors and crap going around, I felt as if I wasn't welcome anymore, which I see now that I'm not. I'll say it again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for helping me with sky. I wish I could repay you but I can't really help with much in my current level. ANY time you need me for anything, all you have to do is ask. I'll gladly drop what I'm doing (given I can find a replacement for myself in exp or helping unless they don't need it) and come help.
Brianfist - I don't know why you won't talk to me or wave at me anymore, but I have a feeling because of the LS I'm in and the rumors. I seem to always be the one that finds things out the hard way. Just ask Rayn or Vondoom. I'm constantly finding out crap the hard way because of not knowing before hand. I hope you can forgive me for what ever I did wrong that got you to stop speaking to me. Again, I thank you for helping me with my Wyvern Skull. I could of never done it with out you. Thank you so much.
Calbrone - I'll be the first to admit it. I was a stupid, idiotic bitch. I had previously heard some things from ex-BoL members about you and I took them to heart with out first knowing you. It was a very stupid thing to do. I can't stop kicking myself in the ass for it. When I set up the opo-opo crown event and you scheduled gods on top of it and got some of my members, the things I was told automatically came in to mind. I put blame on you that you were the selfish, "wanna-be" leader of the LS and you don't care what others plan, you're going to get everyone to go to yours I was told. I hated you for the longest because of it. I suddenly realized how stupid and selfish that was of me. How I could put blame on someone I'd never actually done much with or talked to just because someone had told me junk. Immediately, I put the blame on myself. I've cursed myself out for that every day since I realized that. I'm really sorry. I hope you can forgive me, too. I admit, it was one of the dumbest things anyone could ever do.
Dowzer - Ok ok. I know. Why the heck is this bitch talking to me. I know you're pissed at me. You have very good reason to be. You deserve to hate every bone in my body. I have NOT been fair to you at all. And to think I put blame on you for our fights. How fuckin dumb can I be? It was me, this whole time. I was snapping at the slightest thing. I told you some of the real life issues but not all. I'm not going to because I now see it isn't a part of why I was this rude to you. It was my own attitude. I'm truely sorry for everything I've put you through. It was the worst thing I have ever done in my life. I don't blame you for wanting to get away from it. Hell, if I were you, I would of been long gone a LONG time ago. I'm not going to ask for forgiveness. I don't deserve it at all. I wish I could tell you, but I have no clue what suddenly snapped inside me that made me lash out on you all the time. I'm am so so sorry for it. I just want you to know how sorry I am. That's all. Blist me, spread shit about me, MPK me, anything. I deserve it. I encourage you to. You did NOT deserve what I did.
Vasage - I haven't been very fair to you, either. I've put you off on shit, I've leveled with you, hell, I even joined a static KNOWING you were trying to catch up to level with me. You should of just told me to go fuck off and found another person to hang out with. I'm really sorry for being so rude to you. I wish I could make it up to you.
I'm still not done.
Yesterday, I was in seventh heaven. Antura invited me in to a PERFECT party. RNG, RNG, RNG, BRD, WHM, NIN. I think Antura said we got a total of 70k exp in that party. I'm unsure how long we parties because it was fun the whole time. Chain 10s, no downtime, constant fights, everything. I went from middle of level 66 to level 68 in that party. I couldn't believe it. In all that time, we only had 1 time we stopped. That was because the NIN had to go do something real fast and the RNGs needed to restock on arrows/bolts/bullets. I wish every party was like that. @.@
Today comes around and I decide "hey.. I'm level 68.. I should go fight Maat". After a lot of helpful tips by Rayn, and a lot of comforting for my nervousness from Blazingvolcomx, Zaltana, Chisei, Rayn, and Clocian, I went in. Someone told me he dressed in the same thing I did. AWESOME! So I went in with my fishing gear. Fishing rod, bait, and all. I get Barblizzara, Stoneskin, Protect IV, Shell IV, Blink, Aquaviel, Barparalyzra up, marron glace, heal mp, yagudo drink, and cast Silence on Maat. Oooh yeah. It stuck. I was so happy. Fight (well, me trying to keep myself alive) went on for a few minutes then suddenly I was running out of mp. I yagudo drink again, hi-ether, and I figured I was set. BOOM. He uses tackle. I go down to 300 hp. I stay calm, try to cure myself. "Unable to use spell". WTF. I try again, same thing. by then I was to 198 hp. I try to use benediction. "Unable to use job ability". HUH? I look up and I'm not stunned or silenced. Hmmm. I go down to 73 hp, while trying to cure myself again and again. Finally, I hit 22 HP and I decided it to 2 hour. "Unable to use job ability" "Maat misses Atrbiohazard". WTF. I couldn't do ANYTHING. He killed me because of it. I was mad, but not too bad. I decided, "hell, my two friends told me they'd help me with another test if I needed it". I /tell them that I died and that I couldn't use my abilities/spells for no reason but that I needed another test because I was NOT going to give up. I get /tells back saying "We'll do it later. I'm kind of busy right now". *thunk*. Well, my adrenaline was rushing because I wanted to fight the chubby punk again, so I decided to ask a few people. Chisei and Lazarious agreed to come help me with another test. AWESOME.
So out we go to Gustav Tunnel. I was over excited. First Alchemist, no drop. /cry I can't go right away. Oh well. Second gob was going fine. Suddenly I was getting hit.
Kept curing myself and suddenly two were hitting me. I ended up dieing. I didn't complain even though I was close to delevel. I get raised by a party that was on the way out and was happy. 3 Alchemists later, no drop. 2 more alchemists later, no drop. Suddenly I see :
(Chisei) {Found it!} Wyvernpoacher Drachlox {Run away!} {Flee} {Hide} o.o
Wewt! Pull it! We had a 75NIN, 68WHM, and 65BLM here. I've seen 75THF solo it easy. He pulls. All was fine and dandy until he uses Eagle Eye Shot. Lazarious falls to low HP. Instead of getting shadows up, he proceeds to bitch at me about no Cure V when I was already casting something. So, he dies because of it. Chisei dies, I make it to Cape Terrigan with little HP. Laz proceeds to blame me for his death, called me hard headed for not listening to him (ahem.. I was CASTING already you fool), then started complaining to ME that I could of saved him (I had no chance of saving him) and that it's bullshit that he died. He also said I'd be pissed, too. I came back with :
(Atrbiohazard) I DID happen to me. When I died earlier, you could of easily voked one of them off and I would of lived. But did I complain? No.
So, I raised him, BLM D2'd him, and we warped. I was really upset.
I was crying IRL and just decided fuck it, I'm gone. I'll go find another game to play. Told everyone I was quitting, and went to log. Then Chasym, Lionsheart, Cycloalkane, and Aidyn talked to me (2 of them were begging me not to go..I couldn't resist) so I was forced to stay on the game. Knowing these four, they're going to keep me on the game until the day I die.
Before anyone from Lazarious's linkshell and friends of his wants to come on and defend him because "you're good friends with him and know he wouldn't do shit like that" like I've seen in almost every thread on here, I'll let you know ahead of time, before you make yourselves look stupid, that he's my RL brother. Trust me, I know him better than any of you.
Last thing, I'm tired of liars. Don't freakin promise me to come help/make gil with me then not speak to me for a few minutes besides saying "I'm coming" then logging off. Don't expect me to believe you next time you say you'll help and then I find others to help and you get pissed. I have always disliked liars. I always will. If you're going to lie to me, don't expect me to be as nice to you as I was. Something IRL comes up, I understand. But logging because you had "something better to do" or something without /telling me first so I can find someone else is plain bullshit. So call me a bitch all you want for being rude to you when you lied to me then expect me to trust you with everything else when I can find other people I know holds their word.
Take it or leave it, I don't care. Wanted to get some crap off my chest. I'm starting over. No, not my character. I'm giving myself an attitude adjustment. I'm not going to let stress or other crap bother me. I'm not going to let it interfere with my friendships. I'm not going to let myself lash out on someone. I'm going to become this perfect angel that everyone wishes me to be. Ok, maybe not that good. I'll still let someone know exactly what I think about them, though. >=)
For the past month or so, any time I /randomed or cast lot on something, it was below 200 and someone beat me. Every time. Rare/ex armor/weapons, expensive stuff that drops, everything. The only time I casted over 200 was a 909 on a WATER CRYSTAL. I'm never going to get gil coming in or rare/ex items with these crappy lots.
I've been stuck on my AF for BLM for a while now. No one will help. Not even when I offer 50k per coffer key. Hell, it's only Garlaige and Eldieme coffer keys I need. Already have Davoi coffer key. It's driving me insane.
I know a way to make quite a lot of gil in a day (if all goes right) but alas, I can not solo. I gladly offer to split the gil between anyone that comes but no one wants to. That confuses me because normally everyone jumps at the chance of getting gil.
I need 28.7 million gil for my WHM equipment. An additional 3 mill or so for my BLM gear and spells up to 60. I try to make the best of my jobs. I refuse to slack off. I know most of you are going to say something in the terms of "you don't need all that gil. It's the person who makes the character, not the equipment". Well, let me tell you. I've been wanting this equipment for a long time. I've been wanting to make the party happy that invites me to see a WHM that's taken her time to get all that gil up to get everything she has to make the best of her job. I have never been comfortable settling with "ok" gear. I always want the best. That's just who I am. Ever since I seen this gear for each of those two jobs, I've wanted it. "Go on NM/HNM hunts". No. The only one I see friends and my LS go to actively anymore is Simurgh, which bores me shitless because there is absolutely nothing around to fight. Sure, a crab every 30 min or something. But nothing to keep my attention on watching it pop. I get bored, I tend to get wrapped up in other things outside the game, and I tend to miss claim or something. Serket, fine. There's enough there for me to screw around with. Aquarius, sure. Again, there's stuff that will keep my attention on the game. As I said, this gear will be mine. I refuse to do level until I get the equipment I can use right now.
The LS feuds I'm so sick of. BloodofLegends was my family. I'd been with them since my early days. I got the pearl from Jdogg and Zaken back when I was leveling WHM in West Ronfaure with no sub job and rank 1. I LOVED being with them. For a few weeks, I kept getting /tells when someone would see I was BoL. They'd talk about how BoL MPKed them and all this other junk. Was all made up to get BoL a bad rep. Either because they were pissed because BoL claimed an NM/HNM before they could or because they were jealous. I decided to take a break from BoL for a week or two after I kept repeatedly getting those /tells 3-4 times a day and kept telling them to take it up with Watchyourstep, not me, and they didn't. I told Watch and he was fine with that. Until my friend offered me a pearl for another linkshell (I will not name on here so no BS comes up). I never knew that those two LSes were total enemies and soon I became a traitor to BoL. I had no idea what was going on until another friend from BoL told me. I was devestated.
Well, we went out and I had my BoL friend with me and some of the then-current LS to get a testimony and coffer key in Beadeaux for people from the LS. They were at each other's throats the whole time. I kept telling them to shut up, calm down, and just play, but they refused. Finally, when my BoL friend SATA'd on one of the WHM's, she tele'd and the rest warped. I tele'd me and my BoL friend and after hearing them talk crap about BoL and me trying to defend BoL, I unequipped it. I was outnumbered and no one was listening to an ex-BoL.
A week or two later, my friend invites me to join him and two of his friends farming. YAY! I get down there and we farmed for a while. Got two Water IV drops and other misc stuff. I was a happy camper. I even made a new good friend, Blazingvolcomx. After everyone left, I get a /tell from Raz asking me if I'd like to join the linkshell. Sure! A few days later, I find out that this LS is yet another BoL enemy. Oh shit. I decide to stick with them because they weren't talking crap about BoL. Then, I get asked to come help camp Simmy because they needed a WHM. /cry. I go on out there and sure enough (as always
) BoL comes in. After screwin' around with some of the BoL members who didn't hate me, Simmy spawned and they got claim fair and square. Well, I go over, stoneskin and blink, and sit down to watch the fight and get ToD. Suddenly, they were fighting in say talking about each other MPKing and stealing. I got bitched out once in /tell because I did a Cure IV on one of the members fighting Simmy because he was below half. I didn't steal. If I was attempting to steal, I would be able to. I had Cure V and plenty of MP. Once I explained that I wasn't trying to steal, and that I was trying to keep his member alive, he calmed down. *phew*Then yesterday, poof, Cycloalkane appears. He said he thought I quit the game because he hadn't seen me on LS lately. /cry. Then I hear later that someone has told BoL that I QUIT the LS and was spreading rumors about them to bring down their rep. Excuse me? Why would I do that to whom I still call my family? Who I miss tons? Who I defend any time someone brings up bull shit about them? I'm sorry. WRONG!
Anyways, this LS feud is driving me nuts. I never seen BoL talking crap about anyone but gilsellers. No other LS no matter how much they didn't like them. I respected that a lot. I've lost many friends over this fighting because of rumors being spread and LS's hating each other. THIS ISN'T JUNIOR HIGH PEOPLE! I'm pretty sure many other LS's have the same problem going on.
Watchyourstep, Kasuke, Brianfist, Calbrone, and all of BoL... I'm sorry. The truth is that I was taking a break from the drama I was getting. I didn't leave. I didn't want to. I got so sick of people outside BoL /telling me crap but not telling WYS that I just wanted to take a break. The reason I decided on taking a break was to see if the crap stopped, thinking thier mission was completed. I didn't know that ShikuzaKinen or RazKou were pretty much enemies. I'd never heard of them before. I'm not going to lie, I've made pretty good friends from those LS's. I really didn't know. I hope you guys can forgive me.
Watchyourstep - I never hated you. I never spread shit about you. I never lied to you. I just told you what was said to me. I agreed with you about them being either jealous or something. I tried to get them to /tell you about it but I guess they didn't. I got stuck in the middle of some things on LS which I ended up as the guinea pig to go tell you about which probably made me seem like a bitch when I was just taking everything that someone told me to tell you back to you. I don't know why they couldn't tell you themselves, but you know how I am. I try to help as much as possible. A simple game item, a fight, anything. I hope you can forgive me.
Kasuke - I did NOT want to leave BoL. I wasn't being one of the others who you helped get sky then left. I wanted to stay, I really did. Just with all those rumors and crap going around, I felt as if I wasn't welcome anymore, which I see now that I'm not. I'll say it again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for helping me with sky. I wish I could repay you but I can't really help with much in my current level. ANY time you need me for anything, all you have to do is ask. I'll gladly drop what I'm doing (given I can find a replacement for myself in exp or helping unless they don't need it) and come help.
Brianfist - I don't know why you won't talk to me or wave at me anymore, but I have a feeling because of the LS I'm in and the rumors. I seem to always be the one that finds things out the hard way. Just ask Rayn or Vondoom. I'm constantly finding out crap the hard way because of not knowing before hand. I hope you can forgive me for what ever I did wrong that got you to stop speaking to me. Again, I thank you for helping me with my Wyvern Skull. I could of never done it with out you. Thank you so much.
Calbrone - I'll be the first to admit it. I was a stupid, idiotic bitch. I had previously heard some things from ex-BoL members about you and I took them to heart with out first knowing you. It was a very stupid thing to do. I can't stop kicking myself in the ass for it. When I set up the opo-opo crown event and you scheduled gods on top of it and got some of my members, the things I was told automatically came in to mind. I put blame on you that you were the selfish, "wanna-be" leader of the LS and you don't care what others plan, you're going to get everyone to go to yours I was told. I hated you for the longest because of it. I suddenly realized how stupid and selfish that was of me. How I could put blame on someone I'd never actually done much with or talked to just because someone had told me junk. Immediately, I put the blame on myself. I've cursed myself out for that every day since I realized that. I'm really sorry. I hope you can forgive me, too. I admit, it was one of the dumbest things anyone could ever do.
Dowzer - Ok ok. I know. Why the heck is this bitch talking to me. I know you're pissed at me. You have very good reason to be. You deserve to hate every bone in my body. I have NOT been fair to you at all. And to think I put blame on you for our fights. How fuckin dumb can I be? It was me, this whole time. I was snapping at the slightest thing. I told you some of the real life issues but not all. I'm not going to because I now see it isn't a part of why I was this rude to you. It was my own attitude. I'm truely sorry for everything I've put you through. It was the worst thing I have ever done in my life. I don't blame you for wanting to get away from it. Hell, if I were you, I would of been long gone a LONG time ago. I'm not going to ask for forgiveness. I don't deserve it at all. I wish I could tell you, but I have no clue what suddenly snapped inside me that made me lash out on you all the time. I'm am so so sorry for it. I just want you to know how sorry I am. That's all. Blist me, spread shit about me, MPK me, anything. I deserve it. I encourage you to. You did NOT deserve what I did.
Vasage - I haven't been very fair to you, either. I've put you off on shit, I've leveled with you, hell, I even joined a static KNOWING you were trying to catch up to level with me. You should of just told me to go fuck off and found another person to hang out with. I'm really sorry for being so rude to you. I wish I could make it up to you.
I'm still not done.
Yesterday, I was in seventh heaven. Antura invited me in to a PERFECT party. RNG, RNG, RNG, BRD, WHM, NIN. I think Antura said we got a total of 70k exp in that party. I'm unsure how long we parties because it was fun the whole time. Chain 10s, no downtime, constant fights, everything. I went from middle of level 66 to level 68 in that party. I couldn't believe it. In all that time, we only had 1 time we stopped. That was because the NIN had to go do something real fast and the RNGs needed to restock on arrows/bolts/bullets. I wish every party was like that. @.@
Today comes around and I decide "hey.. I'm level 68.. I should go fight Maat
". After a lot of helpful tips by Rayn, and a lot of comforting for my nervousness from Blazingvolcomx, Zaltana, Chisei, Rayn, and Clocian, I went in. Someone told me he dressed in the same thing I did. AWESOME! So I went in with my fishing gear. Fishing rod, bait, and all. I get Barblizzara, Stoneskin, Protect IV, Shell IV, Blink, Aquaviel, Barparalyzra up, marron glace, heal mp, yagudo drink, and cast Silence on Maat. Oooh yeah. It stuck. I was so happy. Fight (well, me trying to keep myself alive) went on for a few minutes then suddenly I was running out of mp. I yagudo drink again, hi-ether, and I figured I was set. BOOM. He uses tackle. I go down to 300 hp. I stay calm, try to cure myself. "Unable to use spell". WTF. I try again, same thing. by then I was to 198 hp. I try to use benediction. "Unable to use job ability". HUH? I look up and I'm not stunned or silenced. Hmmm. I go down to 73 hp, while trying to cure myself again and again. Finally, I hit 22 HP and I decided it to 2 hour. "Unable to use job ability" "Maat misses Atrbiohazard". WTF. I couldn't do ANYTHING. He killed me because of it. I was mad, but not too bad. I decided, "hell, my two friends told me they'd help me with another test if I needed it". I /tell them that I died and that I couldn't use my abilities/spells for no reason but that I needed another test because I was NOT going to give up. I get /tells back saying "We'll do it later. I'm kind of busy right now". *thunk*. Well, my adrenaline was rushing because I wanted to fight the chubby punk again, so I decided to ask a few people. Chisei and Lazarious agreed to come help me with another test. AWESOME.So out we go to Gustav Tunnel. I was over excited. First Alchemist, no drop. /cry I can't go right away. Oh well. Second gob was going fine. Suddenly I was getting hit.
Kept curing myself and suddenly two were hitting me. I ended up dieing. I didn't complain even though I was close to delevel. I get raised by a party that was on the way out and was happy. 3 Alchemists later, no drop. 2 more alchemists later, no drop. Suddenly I see :(Chisei) {Found it!} Wyvernpoacher Drachlox {Run away!} {Flee} {Hide} o.o
Wewt! Pull it! We had a 75NIN, 68WHM, and 65BLM here. I've seen 75THF solo it easy. He pulls. All was fine and dandy until he uses Eagle Eye Shot. Lazarious falls to low HP. Instead of getting shadows up, he proceeds to bitch at me about no Cure V when I was already casting something. So, he dies because of it. Chisei dies, I make it to Cape Terrigan with little HP. Laz proceeds to blame me for his death, called me hard headed for not listening to him (ahem.. I was CASTING already you fool), then started complaining to ME that I could of saved him (I had no chance of saving him) and that it's bullshit that he died. He also said I'd be pissed, too. I came back with :
(Atrbiohazard) I DID happen to me. When I died earlier, you could of easily voked one of them off and I would of lived. But did I complain? No.
So, I raised him, BLM D2'd him, and we warped. I was really upset.
I was crying IRL and just decided fuck it, I'm gone. I'll go find another game to play. Told everyone I was quitting, and went to log. Then Chasym, Lionsheart, Cycloalkane, and Aidyn talked to me (2 of them were begging me not to go..I couldn't resist) so I was forced to stay on the game. Knowing these four, they're going to keep me on the game until the day I die.
Before anyone from Lazarious's linkshell and friends of his wants to come on and defend him because "you're good friends with him and know he wouldn't do shit like that" like I've seen in almost every thread on here, I'll let you know ahead of time, before you make yourselves look stupid, that he's my RL brother. Trust me, I know him better than any of you.
Last thing, I'm tired of liars. Don't freakin promise me to come help/make gil with me then not speak to me for a few minutes besides saying "I'm coming" then logging off. Don't expect me to believe you next time you say you'll help and then I find others to help and you get pissed. I have always disliked liars. I always will. If you're going to lie to me, don't expect me to be as nice to you as I was. Something IRL comes up, I understand. But logging because you had "something better to do" or something without /telling me first so I can find someone else is plain bullshit. So call me a bitch all you want for being rude to you when you lied to me then expect me to trust you with everything else when I can find other people I know holds their word.
Take it or leave it, I don't care. Wanted to get some crap off my chest. I'm starting over. No, not my character. I'm giving myself an attitude adjustment. I'm not going to let stress or other crap bother me. I'm not going to let it interfere with my friendships. I'm not going to let myself lash out on someone. I'm going to become this perfect angel that everyone wishes me to be. Ok, maybe not that good. I'll still let someone know exactly what I think about them, though. >=)
/em gives you a big tarutaru hug.
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