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I think I Quit. I'm not entirely sure where it happened, when it happened or why it happened but I think i've quit FFXI.
Months and months ago an incident made me stop playing for a while and in that short while my life has really turned a 180. I had let FFXI rule my life and i think i always knew that, but somewhere in that break i finally faced that fact and i think the part of me that was clinging to this game snapped. FFXI ruined my grades in 11 and grade 12. FFXI ruined my attempt at university. FFXI dictated my work schedule. FFXI dictated my sleep schedule. FFXI ruined a few relationships and a few relationships never started or ended because i was too busy playing FFXI to go and start them.
FFXI hasn't really been that fun. not ever really, i might miss running across the plains in sarutabaruta. that's probably it. It is, what we all know and have known forever, a pretty boring game. I wasted a lot of my life not even playing a game, but sitting logged into a game waiting to play it. If it's not waiting for a party, it's waiting for a monster, if it's not waiting for a monster it's waiting for a piece of gear. All there is left at this game is to beat new missions, which really are just the same mission, the same fight, the same struggle with new faces and new monsters and new stories.
Since i've stopped playing XI my life has improved. I've dropped 28lbs and gained about 3 inches to my biceps. lost a lot of gut, gained cardiovascular fitness. i feel better about myself and my life. I work better, i sleep better I have more fun more often. I go to parties with my friends get drunk and have REAL adventures and REAL stories. I have a REAL girlfriend again and we're serious enough that she's moved in with me. I really don't feel any inclination to touch the game except for sentimental reasons.
I wasted a year of my life on this game. not just like 2006-2007, no, it can't be that easy. i WASTED A YEAR of my life. like 365 days. like, at minimum wage $80,000 since i started in winter 03. This game is doom on a persons life, and if they started it before they had their lives set up and running like i did, odds are, you cheated yourself out of many a brighter future.
I think i'll keep kicking around the forums, lots of us do really... this point is iffy with me because i think these forums are part of the reason a lot of quitters come back, they quit the game, troll the forums and then return. I doubt that's a concern for me now. think it's high time i admitted to myself and everyone else that i've quit. It feels good to say it.
As far as goodbyes to people ingame? well, i can be an abbrasive person, moreso online than offline and i don't have a ton of close friends ingame.
RpgPlayersRealm LS people... Grand, Mara, Shakaar, Trigger, Honorarily Immunity, Javir too. Those were the best times. You all i will miss.
GamerHQ it's odd to think of this shell at time, I was one of the first people in this shell, i caught ninjai right after it was made when he was on the way to pearl someone else, he thought i was a funny kid and he invited me. So many cool people went through that shell, even if i wasn't in it LOTS i liked and will miss those that remain. Baj, Mexi, Shin... and i think madddogg is still kicking around. Said goodbye to a few of you already too. Cya
Hellraisers. Qutera and CO. i met some damn cool peeps in there. Angrymidget, Paleblue (who i still think is one of the best people ever to grace our server), Weaponslayer, Dragonxwell... a lot of us went to and through there. sorry to not name a few but the best of luck to all of you.
Dragonflame/dragonstone You all were cool. was a cool shell, too bad teppo broke it. Cyro, Hillie... cyro... cyro.. you were tres cool kittens.
Achelois, i met you and then tidy somewhere in the mix and you guys are awesome.
CK- i met a lot of cool people in this shell, i mean that seriously, I disagreed with the leadership but i met some really cool people here nonetheless.
Perseverance -My last and well, "current" shell. you guys are awesome. all of you. Ark, ACHE, Allexxa, Aurorastar, BJ, Bigherb, BoF(who i've known for long time before this and long after he left), Deltoid, Dragod, EK, Evanos, Jereme, Jakey, Ham, Kiru, Landin, Lawrnz, Maur Meik, N0, Nich, Noyade, Nyoni, RAYE, Streetz, Weii, Vas and anyone else i missed. all 100% awesome.
My account is probably gonna stick around, under marajade's control. Not gonna log in to say goodbye (can't for technical reasons) so pass it on for me someone. Maybe i'll see you around some day huh?
Months and months ago an incident made me stop playing for a while and in that short while my life has really turned a 180. I had let FFXI rule my life and i think i always knew that, but somewhere in that break i finally faced that fact and i think the part of me that was clinging to this game snapped. FFXI ruined my grades in 11 and grade 12. FFXI ruined my attempt at university. FFXI dictated my work schedule. FFXI dictated my sleep schedule. FFXI ruined a few relationships and a few relationships never started or ended because i was too busy playing FFXI to go and start them.
FFXI hasn't really been that fun. not ever really, i might miss running across the plains in sarutabaruta. that's probably it. It is, what we all know and have known forever, a pretty boring game. I wasted a lot of my life not even playing a game, but sitting logged into a game waiting to play it. If it's not waiting for a party, it's waiting for a monster, if it's not waiting for a monster it's waiting for a piece of gear. All there is left at this game is to beat new missions, which really are just the same mission, the same fight, the same struggle with new faces and new monsters and new stories.
Since i've stopped playing XI my life has improved. I've dropped 28lbs and gained about 3 inches to my biceps. lost a lot of gut, gained cardiovascular fitness. i feel better about myself and my life. I work better, i sleep better I have more fun more often. I go to parties with my friends get drunk and have REAL adventures and REAL stories. I have a REAL girlfriend again and we're serious enough that she's moved in with me. I really don't feel any inclination to touch the game except for sentimental reasons.
I wasted a year of my life on this game. not just like 2006-2007, no, it can't be that easy. i WASTED A YEAR of my life. like 365 days. like, at minimum wage $80,000 since i started in winter 03. This game is doom on a persons life, and if they started it before they had their lives set up and running like i did, odds are, you cheated yourself out of many a brighter future.
I think i'll keep kicking around the forums, lots of us do really... this point is iffy with me because i think these forums are part of the reason a lot of quitters come back, they quit the game, troll the forums and then return. I doubt that's a concern for me now. think it's high time i admitted to myself and everyone else that i've quit. It feels good to say it.
As far as goodbyes to people ingame? well, i can be an abbrasive person, moreso online than offline and i don't have a ton of close friends ingame.
RpgPlayersRealm LS people... Grand, Mara, Shakaar, Trigger, Honorarily Immunity, Javir too. Those were the best times. You all i will miss.
GamerHQ it's odd to think of this shell at time, I was one of the first people in this shell, i caught ninjai right after it was made when he was on the way to pearl someone else, he thought i was a funny kid and he invited me. So many cool people went through that shell, even if i wasn't in it LOTS i liked and will miss those that remain. Baj, Mexi, Shin... and i think madddogg is still kicking around. Said goodbye to a few of you already too. Cya
Hellraisers. Qutera and CO. i met some damn cool peeps in there. Angrymidget, Paleblue (who i still think is one of the best people ever to grace our server), Weaponslayer, Dragonxwell... a lot of us went to and through there. sorry to not name a few but the best of luck to all of you.
Dragonflame/dragonstone You all were cool. was a cool shell, too bad teppo broke it. Cyro, Hillie... cyro... cyro.. you were tres cool kittens.
Achelois, i met you and then tidy somewhere in the mix and you guys are awesome.
CK- i met a lot of cool people in this shell, i mean that seriously, I disagreed with the leadership but i met some really cool people here nonetheless.
Perseverance -My last and well, "current" shell. you guys are awesome. all of you. Ark, ACHE, Allexxa, Aurorastar, BJ, Bigherb, BoF(who i've known for long time before this and long after he left), Deltoid, Dragod, EK, Evanos, Jereme, Jakey, Ham, Kiru, Landin, Lawrnz, Maur Meik, N0, Nich, Noyade, Nyoni, RAYE, Streetz, Weii, Vas and anyone else i missed. all 100% awesome.
My account is probably gonna stick around, under marajade's control. Not gonna log in to say goodbye (can't for technical reasons) so pass it on for me someone. Maybe i'll see you around some day huh?
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