Why I, alone, got shafted.
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I've been hearing crap about all of this all around me. Kea is being harassed by this Colbwa. Though I really don't know Colbwa, I knew Kea, and people around me are always talking about this.
I'm sick and tired of all this crap. Colbwa stfu and find someone else to drool over, like Roofie, if what I hear about you two is right...
As for Kea.
I've been thinking this for a very long time and I'm finally getting this off my chest. I met Kea as a newb when I started back with the PS2 debut. My friend had started with me and he told me about some great person who was helping him so much to get a foot hold here. I said great, and he asked to let me into that LS, the LovelyAngels.
Well I was taken in eventually and I was intimidated by all the higher lvl and more experienced players.
But people told me that this was a great way to learn about the game. Everyone told me that the higher level people in your linkshell would help you.
From what my friend said, this person was so nice. Guess who?
Yes, many people in my first linkshell helped me greatly. Jajaj, thanks for all ur support back in the day, and taking me to Jeuno too. Dami, wherever you went, thanks for your support as a higher lvl elv mage. Utenamoon, thanks for talking to me when no one else was interested. I hope things are going ok for u and Gwen, wherever.
However Kea did not treat me with the same charity she seemed to have a reputation for. On the contrary, I truly felt insulted and depreciated from a few of my conversations with her. Most of them equated to a, "go find out for yourself and dont bother us," or, "you're too low lvl to understand." The end result of my first LS experience was a negative one. The person my friends raved about had seemed to be strangely cold to me. Just me, mind you. I told other people long after about this, and they refused to believe me. When I told people about this, they said I was being unfair to Kea and that she's a much better person. Well I did my best to find out, and I continued to come out feeling the same.
Kea seemed to me to have a very elitist attitude towards some people. The people who were weak players, as I seemed to see, were just insignificant. You can prolly go to her site and read some things a little differently thinking this.
I was just a newb and I felt treated like trash by her. All my friends raved about how nice and amazing she was. And It just made me mad.
As LovelyAngels began to die, I felt obligated to keep it attached. I had a couple pearls beside that, but as I seemed to get from other players them: LSs are communities.
But despite my best efforts (I'm really not making this up, I was often the only one in the LS for hours at a time.) Kea just gave up on it.
She scheduled a big meeting at a campfire in E. Sarta. I would later stumble on her and MithraPride doing what I had assumed she had planned for that night.
Instead she didn't show. I had seen her earlier that day or the day before. Again, I was the only one on the LS and she vocalized her disgust with that quite clearly. She said that nobody in the LS wanted to be in it anymore. And also some stuff about how we didn't care about her as much or something. Well Kea, we did. You should have seen all the people who came to the meeting.
If that wasn't enough, what about the fact that at least one person had tried to keep the LS alive? It was quite insulting when you said that nobody ever uses the LS anymore, to me... on the LS channel. I told Utena about that, that night we waited for you. Thank God, someone was willing to listen to that newbish Elv WHM, right?
As well the horrible accident you had before. We all did our best to cheer you up for when you came back. Again, when I tell this next part, ppl don't believe me. People were talking about things they would do for you when you came back. Being a newb, without much experience in making gil, I thought the nicest thing I could do for a person in your situation was to have a fund raiser. I bought a whole bunch of roses from Jeuno and sold them. I had a bazaar message explaining how my LS leader was hurt and that I was trying to give her a present for when she returned. I even flagged down people on their way into town.
In the end, I made 12-13k or something like that. For me, back then, that was amazing. I handed you your lil present when you got back and thought that I had finally made a statement for myself in our LS.
Nothing. Just a lil smiley face, a thank you, and a /em kiss on cheek and then it was as if i had not done anything at all. Still made me feel like crap, Kea. That you did.
Lets not forget about the whole marriage thing. With Jimm. My friend Trixi and I thought we'd look into that marriage thing, and I asked you about it. You just said that it was on the Compendium and that you couldn't be bothered to answer those few questions. Again, people refuse to believe these stories.
Lets talk about Jimm too, OK? Jimm is a much nicer person than you guys made him come off to be after all of that stuff. I hadn't talked much with him, but it was clear to me that this was not the monster the LS had heard of.
I could go on with my grievances but I'll stop. I hate personal flame boards. Its one thing if its to warn someone about a gil seller, but when its designed to attack an individual directly-
Shame on you all!
-thus being said, I'll close this.
Lavi, you too were a big help to me back then. Thank you for your support even up to last night, come to think of it. You, imho are a much kinder person than Kea.
Kea, if you're reading this, I'm assuming you're getting mad. And rightly so. This is how you made me feel. You'll talk about how this is all an unfair representation of your character (your real character, thats the one that matters.)
I'm normally not such a mean person. I just couldnt stand this crap any longer. I'm tired of hearing all these people around me talk about what an innocent victum that kea is. You probably pissed Colbwa off somehow too, and you know it.
No I might not be high lvl or have very nice stuff. Sure I can only get on during the weekends. But I don't treat other people the way you made me feel, Kea.
I tried to be nice. You know I did. People who know me here know that.
And yet, you and the people here who will defend you for often some very superficial reasons will think ill of me.
Well thank you, at least this time you'll have an understandable reason to.
~Kite
Oh, and long live SOTA and all that stuff.