I only comment because watching Amerie in action truly worries me. I say this with no sarcasm or mockery at all. She's completely neurotic and narcissistic; and if she is bipolar, she must be unmonitored or whatever her current treatment plan is should be re-evaluated. She actually looks more like a textbook
borderline personality.
I don't think her interactions here or in game are doing anything more for her mental condition than aggravating a serious breakdown and for her own sake, I hope she takes a long break from both to get herself better. I don't think the shots at her mental instability are witty or funny simply because it's a serious matter and it's painfully obvious to everyone that she is dealing with an internal struggle on some level.
Her mental instability, however, does not excuse constant harassment for other players or her inability to show true remorse or compassion. Your boyfriend (or whomever) probably knows you better than most of the posters here, so he probably gets a more broad range of your emotions on a day-to-day. Perhaps he should be encouraging you to seek real help as well, if he truly cares about you. Nothing is normal about the way you've behaved since I've seen you appear on this forum.
You don't have to explain what course you decide to take to anyone here, but please get help. Seek out a support system in family or friends who can help and encourage you in getting whatever help you need. Mental illness is a very serious matter and if your delusions go any further, I'd think you should be hospitalized.