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School this year sucks.
Downright...sucks.
While last year was going on, I thought it was a great fun year! ...Until it ended and I was able to see the whole picture of it.
Last year was a load of crap.
Year before? Same situation.
I've had, what I thought, really good friends. Nice, funny, the works... Then, one day, (one day being a period of wo or so weeks) especially last year, they decide that I'm not "cool" enough to hang out with them. They like...hate me now. I haven't changed really, since I met em...And I'm never mean, so really I'm just so confused.
The few friends I have now are good friends, but its like... Stories.
Stories!
Me and one friend were close for like a year now, but we've talked so much...we're out of stories to tell eachother. Stories? Friendship shouldn't be based on how well we tell or how funny a story of a past experience is, or a joke that you overuse... or is it?
I'm being emo, yes, but its just... I feel really depressed right now. And its always nice to let things out and this is the only place I can think of to talk. Its okay to ignore me, thats fine... Just let me talk
If I didn't have my "sis" as a friend I swear I'd go insane. It feels like everyone at school hates me or is tired of me or what not.
I swear, 6th grade all over again!!!!!!!!!!!
I swear I still love my old friends, the ones that hate me, they're freaking awesome. I guess I went wrong somewhere, though. Its always like this though. Its the reason I think a year is good...until its over.
Thinks are depressing, then something happens to cheer me up, then things are getting good, and then things seem AWESOME! But then, like running off a cliff, one tiny thing happens to turn my life into shit again. The cycle happens twice a year. I read back in my diary and found the patterns.
I don't want to be tired of any friends, and I don't want them to be tired of me. I'm tired of being classified as "that quiet artist girl that sits there" too, I'm tired of it all.
What are friends anyways? I only remember having one true friend. Only one. I am still lonely though. I feel like crap!
I'm sorry. lolemo Enlenne.
...
Its not just school stuff. Home stuff too. Mom dad split. Dad hates me. HE used to be cool. But he decided his illigitimate stepdaughter is good enough for him, so he forgets about his real daughter...
He wonn't even spare $5 for school.
And then mom and her bf. He is way more of a dad than my real one. But the two fight all the time. So he might go away, then I lost both dads. And my mom is constantly depressed.
And I don't wanna even get INTO how big of an idiot my brother is, going and ruining EVERYONES life.
And my extended family...I don't even know them! They don't want to know me!!!
If I dissappear tomorrow, who'll notice?
Yeah. Nice.
Well.
Sorry.
I don't know.
Being emo.
Downright...sucks.
While last year was going on, I thought it was a great fun year! ...Until it ended and I was able to see the whole picture of it.
Last year was a load of crap.
Year before? Same situation.
I've had, what I thought, really good friends. Nice, funny, the works... Then, one day, (one day being a period of wo or so weeks) especially last year, they decide that I'm not "cool" enough to hang out with them. They like...hate me now. I haven't changed really, since I met em...And I'm never mean, so really I'm just so confused.
The few friends I have now are good friends, but its like... Stories.
Stories!
Me and one friend were close for like a year now, but we've talked so much...we're out of stories to tell eachother. Stories? Friendship shouldn't be based on how well we tell or how funny a story of a past experience is, or a joke that you overuse... or is it?
I'm being emo, yes, but its just... I feel really depressed right now. And its always nice to let things out and this is the only place I can think of to talk. Its okay to ignore me, thats fine... Just let me talk
If I didn't have my "sis" as a friend I swear I'd go insane. It feels like everyone at school hates me or is tired of me or what not.
I swear, 6th grade all over again!!!!!!!!!!!
I swear I still love my old friends, the ones that hate me, they're freaking awesome. I guess I went wrong somewhere, though. Its always like this though. Its the reason I think a year is good...until its over.
Thinks are depressing, then something happens to cheer me up, then things are getting good, and then things seem AWESOME! But then, like running off a cliff, one tiny thing happens to turn my life into shit again. The cycle happens twice a year. I read back in my diary and found the patterns.
I don't want to be tired of any friends, and I don't want them to be tired of me. I'm tired of being classified as "that quiet artist girl that sits there" too, I'm tired of it all.
What are friends anyways? I only remember having one true friend. Only one. I am still lonely though. I feel like crap!
I'm sorry. lolemo Enlenne.
...
Its not just school stuff. Home stuff too. Mom dad split. Dad hates me. HE used to be cool. But he decided his illigitimate stepdaughter is good enough for him, so he forgets about his real daughter...
He wonn't even spare $5 for school.
And then mom and her bf. He is way more of a dad than my real one. But the two fight all the time. So he might go away, then I lost both dads. And my mom is constantly depressed.
And I don't wanna even get INTO how big of an idiot my brother is, going and ruining EVERYONES life.
And my extended family...I don't even know them! They don't want to know me!!!
If I dissappear tomorrow, who'll notice?
Yeah. Nice.
Well.
Sorry.
I don't know.
Being emo.
Here if you need anyone to talk to.
