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So, this weekend I went with a friend to hang out with one of their friends, some people I didn't know. Like most of my friends they smoke pot, and so we decided to pass a bowl around. My friend's friend(who we'll call Pedro) pulled out his pipe and loaded a bowl and we started passing it around. Right away I notice that this stuff tastes funny but I didn't think much of it at first. By the time the bowl was gone I started feeling kinda wierd, so I asked wtf was up with this stuff and Pedro proceeds to tell me that it's dusted(laced with Angel Dust). I won't go into detail about what happened next as I know you people don't like hearing about that stuff, other than to say it was one of the worst experiences of my life. I started freaking out and I ran outside (idk why). While I was out there I took a piss in front of some little kids, scared some old mexican guy off his bike, and a few other things I'm not really proud of. About 20 mins after I ran outside the police showed up and arrested me(after quite a struggle) for a number of different things.
When I sobered up I started thinking about things. Why did I trust a random stranger, why didn't my friend warn me, why do I choose to put myself into such risky situations? After a good long think I've decided that it's just not worth it anymore. It's not worth almost dying over something as unimportant as pot. Crazy people do all sorts of crazy things, and how am I to know who to trust? How do I know this isn't going to happen again? It just seems to me that if I want to live to be an old man, the safest thing to do is to just stop all intoxicants flat out. No pot, no shrooms, no dxm, no nothing.
This brings me to the point of this thread - how? How do I stop? I thought it would be easy but the last few days have been some of the worst in my life. I'm constantly getting asked if I want to hit the pipe or something like that and it's just impossible to say no, and then afterwards I feel like a pile of shit for not having any willpower. Now I'm just very confused at to wtf I'm supposed to be doing. On the one hand I still like getting high, on the other I don't want to do it anymore. Advice?
When I sobered up I started thinking about things. Why did I trust a random stranger, why didn't my friend warn me, why do I choose to put myself into such risky situations? After a good long think I've decided that it's just not worth it anymore. It's not worth almost dying over something as unimportant as pot. Crazy people do all sorts of crazy things, and how am I to know who to trust? How do I know this isn't going to happen again? It just seems to me that if I want to live to be an old man, the safest thing to do is to just stop all intoxicants flat out. No pot, no shrooms, no dxm, no nothing.
This brings me to the point of this thread - how? How do I stop? I thought it would be easy but the last few days have been some of the worst in my life. I'm constantly getting asked if I want to hit the pipe or something like that and it's just impossible to say no, and then afterwards I feel like a pile of shit for not having any willpower. Now I'm just very confused at to wtf I'm supposed to be doing. On the one hand I still like getting high, on the other I don't want to do it anymore. Advice?