- Joined
- Oct 21, 2004
- Messages
- 5,301
- Age
- 40
Know a few people have been curious as to how a few things are going with me...I'm not a fan of blogs and I don't really wanna give a huge story to every person who's curious, so felt it may just be best to post here. I know many people feel that anyone who posts information on their RL is simply "begging" to have the info used against them...but if that's the case, so be it - many of my friends are odd at unusual hours and I'd hate to up and vanish without them knowing whats going on. That being said...
Been packing clothes and such but still have much to do, and it's relatively impossible with mom constantly getting drunk and my sister moving out to take care of herself - I could only wish I were that lucky. Been spending the past two days attempting to pack a Cherished Teddy collection consisting of at least 400 bears, all with a name and matching box...
I'm pretty much at a complete loss as to what to say to my friends. Within two years I've lost my grandpa, father, childhood cat as well as dog I'd owned half my life. I recently lost my brother and now I'm losing my house. The cable was shut off Friday, phone's gone, net was supposed to be shut off at around 3pm today but for some reason they haven't turned it off yet, perhaps due to being the weekend or such. My sister has for the most part abandoned us, having moved out without making any effort to pack anything else in the house. My mom's destroying herself with alcohol, so I feel somewhat obligated to look after her or I'd probably make some attempt to leave too...
This is more or less meant to be a farewell post...with all due respect I shouldn't be able to even make this, but I'm somewhat glad I was able to even if it results in a few good riddances from some people. I'll be gone for perhaps a few days, more likely a few weeks, estimating I won't be back before January. Sorry it's so poorly worded, I just honestly don't know how to say it since I didn't really think I'd have even gotten the chance to make this post.
I hope that to all my friends and enemies, that you take care of yourself...try to remember that not everyone in the world is out to get you, and that you shouldn't expect to worst possible circumstance when things go bad. Try to forgive the mistakes of others...try to remember that we're all human. Just because you don't get along with someone doesn't mean that they're always wrong, and even if you do get along with someone doesn't mean they're always right. But there's honestly no problem with that...I'm sure some may find it incredibly hypocritical of me to be even saying such a thing, with my short fuse and often coming off with a haughty persona...but honestly, all I ever wanted was for everyone to see eachother on an equal level, to stop and at least consider the reasoning behind others' thoughts before jumping into their arguments of whos right and wrong; Anyone who thiks they're all-knowing merely knows all of nothing.
I am not hurt so much by the thought of being homeless as I am the thought of losing my friends. The dozens of people here and in other places, even if across a digital network, I held a great amount of respect for and made every day so much more colorful. It's in my prayers that I can soon converse, joke, and argue with you all once again, and I pray I have the strength to last long enough until then. I will of course have the handful of real-life friends to keep me company, but the loss of being able to talk to someone at any given time is truly a luxury I'm unsure I will be able to live without.
That's...about it for this post. Maybe I'll edit it if my mind clears up a bit.
Been packing clothes and such but still have much to do, and it's relatively impossible with mom constantly getting drunk and my sister moving out to take care of herself - I could only wish I were that lucky. Been spending the past two days attempting to pack a Cherished Teddy collection consisting of at least 400 bears, all with a name and matching box...
I'm pretty much at a complete loss as to what to say to my friends. Within two years I've lost my grandpa, father, childhood cat as well as dog I'd owned half my life. I recently lost my brother and now I'm losing my house. The cable was shut off Friday, phone's gone, net was supposed to be shut off at around 3pm today but for some reason they haven't turned it off yet, perhaps due to being the weekend or such. My sister has for the most part abandoned us, having moved out without making any effort to pack anything else in the house. My mom's destroying herself with alcohol, so I feel somewhat obligated to look after her or I'd probably make some attempt to leave too...
This is more or less meant to be a farewell post...with all due respect I shouldn't be able to even make this, but I'm somewhat glad I was able to even if it results in a few good riddances from some people. I'll be gone for perhaps a few days, more likely a few weeks, estimating I won't be back before January. Sorry it's so poorly worded, I just honestly don't know how to say it since I didn't really think I'd have even gotten the chance to make this post.
I hope that to all my friends and enemies, that you take care of yourself...try to remember that not everyone in the world is out to get you, and that you shouldn't expect to worst possible circumstance when things go bad. Try to forgive the mistakes of others...try to remember that we're all human. Just because you don't get along with someone doesn't mean that they're always wrong, and even if you do get along with someone doesn't mean they're always right. But there's honestly no problem with that...I'm sure some may find it incredibly hypocritical of me to be even saying such a thing, with my short fuse and often coming off with a haughty persona...but honestly, all I ever wanted was for everyone to see eachother on an equal level, to stop and at least consider the reasoning behind others' thoughts before jumping into their arguments of whos right and wrong; Anyone who thiks they're all-knowing merely knows all of nothing.
I am not hurt so much by the thought of being homeless as I am the thought of losing my friends. The dozens of people here and in other places, even if across a digital network, I held a great amount of respect for and made every day so much more colorful. It's in my prayers that I can soon converse, joke, and argue with you all once again, and I pray I have the strength to last long enough until then. I will of course have the handful of real-life friends to keep me company, but the loss of being able to talk to someone at any given time is truly a luxury I'm unsure I will be able to live without.
That's...about it for this post. Maybe I'll edit it if my mind clears up a bit.
Last edited:
hopefully things will get better for you!
