Things to be done that will never come?

[oraga]

I feel a bit depressed at myself for not being as good as other people being slow leveling etc.

I feel this way because ive been palying since a few months (PC) of release and has it gotten me anywhere. no..... People have passed me. Maybe im paying attention to things in RL more which is good but i dreamed of being the first to do somthing the first in relic the first to gets staff relic complete. the first to beat everything i havnt come close yet. 57 far...close i was level 1 i said to myself.

Nick your gonna (well you know my name) get level 60 and get the avatars. its been almost a year and 57 days of game play or so and ive gotten to level 57. i said id get to level 60 65 or more and get them. But... I havnt ive been working on things outside and i avoided the game at times. I met many people when they were low levels and now they are all 75 and have quit or on another job that is a higher lvl then me.

Id just thought id like people to know my dreams.

I got more still....

Another dream that isnt possible is to create a level for FF11 (ive made maps before and know how it is) just to make the layout would bring me great happiness.....

I wanted to be the best i could. Im half as good as i wish.... people have 3 jobs 75 i have none. people have less trouble making money...i do....

I told myself id make it past level 40..... since i never kept up somthing this long... 1 year and going and i havnt quit. I told myself id be known by people i dont know, known by people i havnt seen i havnt talked to. Im not even that far i help free of charge but my name hasnt spread.

I love this game i love the people i just wish i could have been faster.... I'm sorry.

Im going to make an effort to make it to level 75 and get relic im gonna spend all my money on crafting im gonna make all that i can im gonna be known.

Thank you Darkranger Gacace Valekraft Wolfskymoon (for helpin with AF tomorow i hope) Thank you jsoft smahutta kitarahaha wooty sensesfail Ganis Oracant Demonknitx Taurothar All of The one winged angel LS All of the black market LS all the Veilofdarkness. Thank you darkfalcon thank you Quetzalcoatl thank you QCDN Thankyou FF11 thank you for all the support.

No i am not quiting this has been on my back for a while i just felt i asked to much and said nothing. Lots of people no longer play and have a place in my heart that i will always remember. My adventures in in vanadiel shall continue much longer and hope to bring me more honor.

I'm sorry to sound so retarded and stupid and sad its just been on my mind and i want to know what people felt......

See you online!

 

[Krisy]

Just stick with it.. you'll get there. It felt like i took forever to get to lvl 70, but i took around the same time as many of my friends. Everyone has a different lvl pace..just stick w/ what our comfortable w/.

 

[Eni]

if your RL is doing well... thats all that matters



:wink:

 

[Firestreak]

Determination buddy, all things are possible if you never give up.

 

[Anttaru]

Start with the one thing you want done the most. Eventually that will lift your spirit.

I know your a 3D Max user, so just create a level with the least amount of geometry as you can, so long as it looks acceptable to you. Keeping it simple will make room for other things SE would want to do for the game. Then send them a copy of the file on a CD with whatever other goodies you want to show them. They may not take you, but atleast you moved them. Read up on what attributes are needed when creating large polygonl worlds, what kind of things to aviod etc. And you'll eventually be able to make yourself known, not to all of SE, but to those who hold the keys as to who works there or not. Not trying will only hurt you more, cause if you do try, you'll atleast advance one way or another, either you satisfyyourself or not.

I always say, There are times we feel like we are on top of the world, then we find ourslves swinging too close to the rocks. Even in success we are very prone to emotional distortions. Being fed alot of "happy time" can usually magnify less fortunate circumstances to a point where we can overact over things we should be able to deal with simply by taking it easy.

We are all strangers at one point or another. When feeling depressed under FFXI starving enviroment, it's a good time to make more friends, this will change your gaming exsperience. This can be done while your with others on a quest and you come accross another party or alliance. You find out who the leader is and ask them what they are doing, If they are doing the same thing you are doing, then form with them. Long adventures bring about good times when you serve and be served. Remember those people and don't wait for them to say hello to you, in the near future say hello to them.

It is unpleasant when the friends you have made here all level up and leave you behind. This only gives you the chance to party with even more people, and you can make your impression on each and everyone of them. It's our choice how we are recieved by others on a widescale.

Remain silent when one is burning you, and stay close to those who listen to your enemy. By the time your level 75 (or over time), you would have set yourself with tons of people.

Nick. I can talk alot, but i really shouldn't, i get depressed too. I see your suffering so i can't say what i have said is good advice. It's what i do when i'm depressed, and even when i fail with others, i have a glimer of hope that what i have tried to do is still under observation by those who can make it all better, that alone can put a cap on your emotions leaving room for the better things in life. It's easier said than done, so keep in mind that "worries" will drive us, and at the same time we can drive away our worries by not letting them effect our choices. The only "worries" that you should tamper with, are the ones that involve your reputation. Other words you'd care less about people/things that can harm you.

 

[oraga]

Thanks for the support.

To anttaru For low polygon things i dont go to 3ds max i go to a very powerful program used by many beloved games halo used it and i think halo 2 did. This program is called Dedit.

I love this program because its free to use (you might have to get a certain game first).

I cant currently play the level because i need to reinstall the program it has a lighting error....

 

[Anttaru]

*Changes Windows to Silver*

Now that is a super low poly model. It leaves pleanty of room for very high quality textures and bump mapping. Keep on making that zone. I feel like playing Halo now so i'm also gonna check this program out after.