this cold summer

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BeyondReason

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before i begin, please, no haters. if you dont have something nice to say, please dont say it at all.

i dont know why my summer has been so miserable... before school got out i was so close with my friends and for literally 2 months i have only spoken to 1 of the 6. i text and try to hang out with the other 5 but something always comes up with them..... i feel alone. and on top of that, my old crush and his gf just broke up and im trying to get back in the picture because me and him had a fling or whatever you want to call it but i dont know exactly HOW to get back in the picture. hes NEVER on aim, he has a myspace but alot of ppl have his password so i dont trust that.... :sigh: i've been crushing on him for a year now. ive tried to move on but its so hard when its a small town and not much variety of guys...

so basically im feeling really empty.... sometimes i ponder why i really play FFXI. maybe to distract me from my dumpy life? i dont know.... i love playing it but when im on it for hours and i look at the clock and i tell myself "i should be out doing something with my friends" but then i remember they abandoned me. well at least i have 1....but we argue alot and it doesnt help.
i wish i was somewhere else.

can anyone relate? if not, thoughts are still good..
 
Summer time is rough on friendships. When you are at school, you see your friends everyday and its easy to stay so close. When summer hits, its tougher to see them as often, or at all sometimes. This summer most of my friends are out of state working at internships and such, so i havent seen them in months. We all talk once in a while, and I know everything will be fine when summer is over, so I don't really let it bother me.

As for your crush, some crushes never go away kid. And the harder you try, the harder it is going to be. You gotta just let go.
 
BeyondReason said:
so basically im feeling really empty.... sometimes i ponder why i really play FFXI. maybe to distract me from my dumpy life?
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Exactly why I play and it's starting to not work anymore. My life feels empty aswell, just got to suck it up and get on with it and hope there's something better waiting for you around the corner. If you ever need someone to talk to my msn is in my profile here *at least I think it is*. Try not to let it get you down, I know it's hard but once it gets a grip it's hard to shake it off.
 
thank you both for replying. i know when school starts back up everything will be ok but it will feel like im being somewhat used because they have had time to hang out with me but they just dont want to but of course when school starts they will be all buddy buddy.... and as for my crush, i know i need to let it go. sometimes im ok but then sometimes im not. life is painful....

but yeah sharpe i would add you to my msn but your msn address isnt in your profile. it would help alot if i talked to someone.
 
You ever need someone to talk to on game or off send me a pm or tell, Aubrie is the game name, Fadingsmoke1605 is Aim and Yahoo Messanger
 
thanks aubrie. i added you to my BL on aim and will IM you whenever your on.
 
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