Without a heartbeat

[Answa~]

I wrote this today... I feel so depressed...

Without a Heartbeat.


I only think how lost I am,
how I escape from myself...
how I try to cover myself and flee.
Only to find myself in front of me.

I smiled, not me, my other, in front of me,
but my heart no longer beats.
Not dead, almost, but not alive.
My soul no longer wants to stay.

I smile, not me, my other, while I cry.
How strange!, to cry, to smile, and to not [have a] beat[ing heart].
My future is to flee, even if I cry.
My future is to not go back.

My future is of silence, of loneliness.
It's of nights full of darkness inside the blackness.
It's of turning my cheek whenever I feel sad,
of hiding when I cry and of denying my pain.

It's of forgetting, of being ignored,
of getting used to having no one by my side.
It's of never laughing and smiling towards forgetting.
It's of being a ghost inside light.

Once again my mirror smiles at me,
once again I cry without consolation.
This is how it'll always be, I realized.
This is how my life will continue, until it's forgotten.

 

[Alyada]

Very sad Ansaw. ; ;

I feel your pain though. Poetry is always the outlet I turn to.

 

[Sonicboom]

Damn, Answa. C'mon don't be depressed. But I have to say, you're teh bomb at poetry.

 

[Andreus]

What an excellent poem, I really like it. It sure is depressing, but I feel like I can relate to that poem alot. I probably am not in a situation like yours, but I still feel like I can relate to this. I really like the way you used alot of literary elements in this poem, and all the emotion you can seep from it. Maybe Ill put up some of my poetry up one day, that is if I become an acive member of QCDN. XD

{EDIT} Poetry is an excellent outlet to relieve (or exercise) your emotions. Much like Alyada said, I also turn to poetry seeking to relieve my love struggles, stress, or just plain venting.

 

[Squadup]

Poetry =Gayness, BUT answa your my friend so i decided 2 read 2 lines of your thing.. <3