suffering

5 Monthes later and i'm still feeling the effects, and it's driving me nuts. Any idea how long this shit usually lasts ?

That is one of the 3 new recollections you can trade to the Alchemist in Ru'lude Garden to get a Rare/ex item, one being the Hayamuyi, that bow I am looking for. What I am wondering is where to get that recollection. So, has anyone here came accross one of them? Especially the Suffering of...