The leaders won't even post here anymore. They fucked me over, theres proof out the ass, they don't care, they deleted the thread on their forums to try and cover this up, they banned me so I can't stand up for myself on the forums.
I honestly don't care about the item. I had a whole ls fuck me over and laugh about it. That's an entires ls of trust gone in a matter of seconds.
"Oh myrrhs a loot whore, he can't be trusted" I've never done anything to have that said about me. You're a fucking idiot to believe everything without facts. Look at Gala's post. He got it right. Not Sethidumbass.
"He swears and boasts about gear, he can't be trusted" Where the fuck is the logic on that? This thread got 500+ relies in one day because they all know I was fucked over for no reason. I'm not the one who went behind someones back with a deal and nin lotted.
Oh and Xean, incase you do read this. Fuck man I was laughing so hard at how you just showed up in the zone and did nothing. You didn't say anything. Like I said. You just tried to save face. You didn't want people to think of you as a fucktard and you failed on neolink lvls.
Everythings been said a 1000 times. If you didn't trust me you should have booted me from the ls. But wait, you couldn't. If you booted me I would have gone on the ls forums and started shit there. Who knows maybe more people would have left if you had gone that route.
Oh and Zer, I loved your "I can help out for 10 mins" an hour before the window was even open. Like I said, Just tried to save face.
I haven't slept in like 30 hours, I'm still pissed off that I trusted people that I helped and thought i had their trust.
And to anyone saying I shouldn't have posted the LS chat SS, Just STFU. They posted shit from the ls Forums that had no point in this thread what so ever. If the ls was willing to toss me aside even after all the help I did I feel sorry for anyone staying in that Ls.
Actually, if Xean reads this i want him to post a better reason for not trusting me. I'm sorry but i can't believe I was hated for one fucking retarded member.
I know every things been said and done but damn it I'm still pissed at the whole event.
1 - We aren't posting here anymore because its clear people have made their judgements and quite honestly, i'm tired of trying to repeat the same thing over and over only to have you guys tell me you know me better than I know myself. The majority of you are nothing to me, so I don't have to waste my time proving to you something that my family, my friends and my god already know about the kind of person I am.
2 - Despite what Xean felt about whether you could be trusted, that was solely his opinion and he felt that Soulstar shouldn't be as trusting to just not lot. At the time when he gave this advice to Soulstar, he too was unaware of the agreement before. Had we both known about the agreement, we would have questioned him instead, there is nothing in our past history that you could ever use to prove that we would ever "condone" ninja lotting. We were friends with both people, we had no favoritism and we had the desire to see all our SMNs get their YYR but we wanted all to have that fair chance. Apologies have been made to both Soulstar (him lotting in the end, ended up being part our responsibility) and to Myrrh, because unlike everyone claims they know, we aren't happy with the outcome and wish things had been different. We are remorseful about what ended up happening, and considering that this LS and the people in it mean a lot more to me than a lot of other things in life, seeing them be trashed, torn and everything else has really taken a toll on me. I value friendships far more than anything else in this game, and seeing them break is never what I wanted.
3 - Myrrh you were banned because after yesterday when myself, Xean and Soulstar made an attempt to make up for everything that happened. You're angry, so of course you're going to believe we did so to save face. But no, the first step when something bad has happened is to apologize. That was done. Second, make up for it. We tried. We were not given the opportunity. And because you want to seem to stay angry with us and not give us a chance, and because you have made mention you will never be apart of the "LS that betrayed you", I figured what purpose do you have to be in our forums anymore? Our forums are for use of the members to plan and schedule. If you need to contact them, you can do so in game or through email. You had no use of the forum anymore.
4. - The topic was not deleted. It was archived. Everything is going to be archived in the case that someone requests to be able to read it. I have nothing to hide, and never have. I didn't want people dwelling on this anymore, because from the results of yesterday it was evident you no longer wanted to allow us the chance to come to any kind of a "end" to this all. So the only thing left to do now is move on. Why continue to keep discussing something that won't be resolved?
5. - Jyakotsu, my initial /tells to you were a result of being told that you in particular, were outright attacking Soulstar. At that moment in time, I didn't know about the agreement and so in my mind, I was pissed that you were attacking someone who should be able to lot, considering we were all under the assumption it was a camping session for both Myrrh and Soulstar. If they seemed aggressive, sorry but then again everything you've posted here to me has been hostile and aggressive as well as the things you claim that i've called you and others, are exaggerated entirely. Either way, my "tone" when I talked to you through /tell was because I was upset at you freaking out on a member who should have been able to lot (again, not knowing about the agreement)
6. Those of you attacking LS members need to just stop. Those attacking other linkshells i'm associated, need to as well. If i'm the person you have a problem with, direct it to me but you do NOT judge other people based on who they associate with because you should be judgeing them for who they are as a person. They can still have different values, opinions, and morals and that is what you judge a person for.
7. Sethidus did flame Myrrh in linkshell chat, unfortunately I was busy sending /tells to many people at the time (including Myrrh because I was trying to fix things right then and there, as well as get all the details) and as soon as this was noticed, the linkshell was told to immediately stop the discussion because we don't tolerate the flaming of other members. Again, i'm sorry that a few members hold bad opinions of Myrrh, I can't personally control that but once I had the opportunity I did control that from being displayed in the linkshell.
The last thing I want to say, which is a biblical story and you can ignore that one fact, but please take into consideration the point of the story:
Once, two men brought a woman to Jesus claiming that she needed to be stoned because she had committed adultery. Jesus told them: "Ok, those that have never sinned may throw the first stone". Both men did not stone the woman, and left because they were guilty of having committed at least one sin in their life time. Jesus, who had never sinned was the only one that would have been able to stone the woman, but instead he told her to continue living without sin and let her go.
No one is perfect. People make mistakes. And despite whether you people chose to believe me thats your own choice. You've all made your choices, so please move on. If you don't want to talk to me or the other people involved, so be it. Myrrh wants nothing to do with us (the people involved, it shouldn't be the LS as whole many people respect him and don't deserve to be slammed in the face), though if that changes in the future I welcome him to speak to me because those that know me, know that I don't like keeping grudges. This topic hasn't done anything good, instead its destroyed even more friendships and i'd really like to see that come to an end.
Please if you feel the need to say something to me send a PM because like my last post, I have no desire to continue posting here. I have things to do, things I enjoy in this game which is being with friends and helping them.
