I'm not trying to press this Uzor but since I don't know the entire situation at all by any means I will tell you what my mind wandered about the 1st instance.
What if you were part of the reason behind this? Was you and your peers "dislike" and "hatred" a contributing factor? We have these problems here in the states and it's people like this that normally lead to Columbine or Virginia Tech..
What about them? The parents could of been a high contributing factor of stress and anger and depression. They could have been physically and mentally abusive to the girl no?
Like I said I don't know the whole story but those were just some of the thoughts that peaked into my mind. If indeed she was just little sally I love the world, bang, fuck this I'm out. Then I'm wrong but then again why should anyone have to justify their suicide to our society who isn't very tolerable of the subject in the 1st place
The reason I disliked her wasn't really the reason you think. She was rich, had many friends that all acted the same way she acted, and I was myself. I didn't pretend to be someone I wasn't, and for that reason, she didn't like me and took every chance she could to make fun of me. On the other hand, I made fun of her back. I wasn't exactly innocent, no. She was the bullier, kind of, and I fought back. You know how I am, on here too. I say what I think, and don't try to change myself to please someone else. And I love to argue, so I argued with her.
So yes, I could have been part of the contributing factor, which is one of the reason I, too, were affected by her suicide.
As for her family, it is the typical "Child don't feel love" situation. She was the only child, however, her parents worked too much, which ment she had to entertain herself a lot. Which I personally believe lead to her depression.
Most persons that contemplate suicide are normal people which seemingly normal lives. The most common factor of those not suffering from a clinical depression where their brains don't produce enough "happy drugs", is that they act completely normal so that their family and friends don't notice anything is wrong, and they don't talk about it. They keep it inside and don't share with others, and thus get depressed. They don't seek out help for their problems and try to solve them themselves, but don't see an easy, obvious solution for their problems. Eventually it becomes too much, and suicide seem like the easiest solution to the problem.
At first it can be like a joke, but eventually evolves in to something more serious, until they actually contemplate it. However, even then, it takes
a lot for them to actually go through with it.
In the case of my classmate, as I mentioned earlier, her parents worked a lot. She's had no one to really talk to through her childhood, and didn't get enough stimulation as a child. She felt bad, sad and depressed, and took it out on others.
By the time a person contemplates suicide, doesn't mean they're anywhere near actually committing suicide. In most cases when a person commits suicide, they've usually been depressed for years until they build up the courage to commit suicide. A temporary depression lasting a few months isn't enough for a person to actually commit suicide in most cases. And in the case of the columbine shootings etc. I'd venture a guess and say said people are the quiet ones that don't speak a lot and keep to themselves mostly.
Either way, Kohra, if you're depressed and actually contemplate suicide, talk to someone. If you can't build up the courage to speak with a friend or family, and don't want to go to a psychiatrist or something, seek out someone else. Can be a teacher or someone at school, like the school nurse. Its better to talk about it with
someone, even if they can't give you any tips how to solve your problems, its always good to speak out about it and have someone just listen, anyone.
Also, its always good to have goals in life. Doesn't have to be anything huge like "Become president", but small achievable things to fight for, and constantly set up new goals in life which you then struggle for. Can be something small at first, like "Get an A on my next test", and build from there. And don't be saddened if you don't reach your goal at first, its ment as a goal to struggle for, so keep going at it. Although you need 1 big long-time goal to struggle for.
As for your problems, don't know what they are, but problems have a bad tendency to get solved eventually. Don't take them all on at once, you'll find yourself overwhelmed, which will lead to depression eventually. But them all on hold and deal with 1 problem at a time. Take one day at a time, and find something in life that makes you happy and that you enjoy doing. Be it football, poker, FFXI or ballet.
